Chapter 20

She is so fucking beautiful.

Maybe equal parts shocked and turned on at how demanding I am with her tonight, but she's taking it in stride and so far, I've heard no complaints.

Thank God I heard from Grady tonight so I could indulge in pleasuring Ada without a worry in the world. I'm finally free from the chains that have been holding me back for the last several years. Free to rebuild a life with someone I genuinely care about. Someone I know cares about me and even more, loves my kid the way I do.

I watch Ada as she climbs the stairs one at a time, a little weak in the knees, and turns down the hall toward my room, although after tonight I have every intention of calling it ours. When she's out of eyesight, I collect her clothes, stuffing her red lace panties in the pocket of my jeans for safe keeping. I punch in the number for the alarm at the front door and turn off the lamp in the foyer we had left on.

And then I head upstairs for round two.

When I finally strut into the darkened bedroom illuminated only by the moonlight, I find Ada right where I instructed her to be. Her head on my pillow, legs spread so I can see her swollen pink pussy, and her hands holding onto the headboard. She doesn't say a word as I step over to my dresser and pull out a few condoms, tossing them onto the bed.

"Do you trust me, Zeke?"

Her question catches me off guard. "Do I trust you?"

"Yeah."

I climb onto the bed hovering over her and place a soft lick and kiss over each of her nipples, her back arching in response. "You're literally laying on my bed, spread eagle and bared for me and you think I wouldn't trust you?" I chuckle. "Sweetheart, it's probably me who should be asking you that question."

"You don't need the condoms," she says softly.

I pull back and gaze into her eyes. Not questioning her in the slightest but wondering what she's thinking. I'm about to ask when she adds, "I've been on the pill since Luke died. And I haven't been with anyone since."

"Neither have I," I confess to her. "I can tell you I'm clean but I can understand if you don't—"

"I trust you," she murmurs, and I see the sincerity in her eyes. "When you're inside of me, I don't want to have anything between us. I want to feel you, Zeke. All of you. Only you."

Be still my fucking lonely heart.

"You're sure?" I need her to tell me this is what she wants because I'll be damned if we end this night with any regrets whatsoever.

"One hundred percent."

I climb off the bed and toss the condoms into the trash and then slowly strip off my clothes for her. I pull my belt from my belt loops and unbutton my jeans. She licks her lips when I shove my pants and boxer briefs down, freeing my stiff cock, and step out of them.

"Fuuuck me," she breathes, marveling at my naked body standing before her.

"Oh, I plan to, Sweetheart." I crawl back up the bed holding myself over her once again, my cock brushing against her wet pussy.

Fucking hell she feels amazing.

Cupping her face in my hand, I lean down and kiss her gently, our tongues weaving together before I pull back. "I want this, you, us, so fucking much, Ada, but I need you to know, you're in control here. If at any point it's too much, just say so."

Her smile makes me weak in the knees. "It's not too much, Zeke. It's never too much. As far as I'm concerned, it's not enough."

"Good," I tell her as I roll to her side and spoon her from behind, my hands palming her soft round breasts. I squeeze her nipples between my fingers and catch her earlobe between my teeth. "Because you're going to be a good girl and ride my cock until you scream a second time."

"God yes," she whimpers. I slide my hand over her thigh and in between her legs until I'm gripping her pussy in my hands. And then I roll to my back with her body lying on top of mine, her back to my chest. My cock teasing her entrance. I murmur in her ear, "You're going to feel me stretch you, Ada. Fill you, claim you, and then we're going to fuck. Hard and fast until you come apart on my cock."

She's already panting and when I slip a finger through her pussy she's so slick I could eat her all over again. "So, fucking wet for me already."

"Yessss," she hisses when I pull my finger out and wipe her arousal around her nipples.

"Can't wait to suck that off. Are you ready for me?"

"Like this?"

"Just like this, Sweetheart." I grip my cock, stroking myself once, twice, three times and then line myself up with her entrance knowing she can't really see, but she can absolutely feel me. I have her scoot down just a bit and then with one slow thrust, I'm sinking inside her and we're both sighing in tandem.

"Jesus fucking Christ," I murmur. Her pussy is even better than I imagined.

Soft.

Warm.

Tight as hell.

"You feel as amazing as you taste."

"Zeke." My name is a twisted half sigh, half moan from her lips as she adjusts to the fullness of me.

I grip her hips and hold her still, thrusting myself into her slowly several times over, my eyes nearly rolling back as I indulge in the warmth and tightness of her sweet pussy. "I love how well you take my cock, Ada. You've got me so fucking hard."

"More," she pants against me. "Need more. Want more."

"I'm all yours, Sweetheart." I spread her legs wide, to the outside of my own, placing her feet flat on the mattress on either side of me. "Ride me. Fuck me. Use me for your pleasure. Take me as deep as you want. I want to feel you come apart on my cock."

Ada pushes up with her feet and sinks back down on my cock. "Just like that, Baby," I groan. "Fuck, that's incredible."

She repeats her movement as I slide my hands up her soft body to her breasts, squeezing them in my hands.

"Oh my God, Zeke," she cries. "It's too good."

"You like that?" I murmur.

She moans, picking up her pace. "Yessss."

"Your pussy was made for me, Ada." I slide a hand down and rub her clit and she gasps loudly.

"Oh Fuck! Zeke!"

"You do it, Ada," I breathe against her ear. "Touch yourself. Feel how fucking wet you are. Play with that pretty pink clit while you take my cock and don't you dare stop."

"Yessss, Zeke."

I help her out a little by lifting my hips every time she slams down on me, heightening the sensation for both of us. If I'm not careful I'm going to blow my load all over the damn place, and I can't have that happening too soon so I focus all my energy on Ada. Her pleasure. Her happiness. Her orgasm.

We're in the throes of passion now, both of us working up a sweat, our bodies working in tandem. I bite down on her earlobe and then suck it into my mouth. "Such a fucking good girl, Ada. Give me more. I want everything. Everything you can give me."

Her mouth falls open, the sounds she's making with every thrust has me wanting to give her everything in return. I could listen to her all night long.

"Zeeeeeeeke."

"I know, Baby. You're almost there. Come on. You can do this. Keep your hand on that clit and ride this cock. Take it all. Fucking milk me."

I bring a hand to her breast and move the other to her neck, holding her tightly against my throbbing body. "Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah," I growl into her ear. "You're fucking perfect, Ada. Let me hear you. Fucking scream for me."

She rubs at her clit harder and faster, her jaw wide open and her eyes squeezed closed. Her voice rising in pitch with every sound she makes. "Yes, yes, yes, ooooh…" And then suddenly her body is stiffening, she lifts her legs in the air and she's screaming, "Oh, MY FUUUUUUUCKING GOD!"

So proud of her accomplishment, I loosen my grasp on her body and rub gently down her torso to her legs. "That was incredible, Ada." My dick is still painfully hard and I'm in need of my own release so I kiss the side of her head tenderly and then roll us both until she's on her stomach. "That's two. But you've got one more in you."

I tug her hips up in the air and grab one of the pillows to push underneath her so she's comfortable. Then I warm the globes of her ass with the swift spank of my palm. "This won't take long, Sweetheart. You've got me hard as fuck and I need to come inside you."

"Yes," she moans, shimmying her ass and making me smile. "Please, Zeke."

I don't even have to touch her to know she's glistening wet for me so I inch myself inside her, taking my slow sweet time, until I'm in balls deep.

"Ooooh fuck, that feels good," she moans.

"Yeah? You like having my cock inside you?"

"Yessss."

"You want more?"

"Sooo much more," she whimpers.

"Grab the edge of the bed, Baby."

Her arms fly out to grip the edge of the mattress as I pull her hips up even higher and pound into her.

"Yes, Zeke! Feels so good. Oh, God, yes!" she cries out, panting with my every thrust as I quicken my pace watching her slick pussy suck me in over and over and over again. Her confidence knows no bounds and hell if she isn't a remarkable sight. Fucking Ada isn't like anything I thought it would be.

It is one hundred billion times better.

It's indulgent.

It's intense.

It's enthralling.

It's all consuming.

"Perfect, Baby. God, you're milking me. Do you feel that?"

"Zeeeeeeke, I'm going to cooooome" she cries, her voice wavering to the pulse of our rhythm.

"Me too, Ada. I'm right there. Fuck!" Our bodies slick with sweat, I relentlessly thrust inside her chasing the end that I can feel nearing. "Shit. Ada, I'm there. Christ. Come with me. I want to feel this pussy clamp down on my cock and take me one more time. Take it all. Empty me."

At first I hear her gasp and then she doesn't make another sound. Fearing she's holding her breath, I spank her to get her to breathe and that's when she comes hard on my cock, squeezing it like a vise and not letting go until I'm exploding inside her.

"Ah, fuck. Fuck! Fuck! Ada, Jesus Christ."

As my body slows and with my cock still pulsing inside her I lean forward and pepper tender kisses across Ada's back while we both catch our breath. Once we've both come down from our high, I pull myself out of her and gently lower Ada's body to the mattress, rolling to her side and pulling her into my arms.

"Are you okay?"

"Mhmm." I can't tell if she's smiling or not but the tone of her voice sounds like she's more than satisfied. I grin lazily behind her and kiss the back of her head.

"Good. I'll clean you up, I promise. I just need to hold you for a minute."

I inhale a deep breath behind her, catching the scent of our sweat mixed with her raspberry shampoo. It's a scent I could wrap myself in and live in for the rest of my days. Though we lay here in the silence of my bedroom, I can still hear her voice in my mind. Every moan, every groan, every cry she let out for me in the throes of passion.

"That was pretty incredible, you know?" I murmur, squeezing her tighter against me. "You were absolutely breathtaking."

She doesn't respond right away and I wonder for a moment if maybe she's fallen asleep, but then I hear the faintest sniffle.

"You okay?"

Sniffle.

"Mhmm."

Oh no.

Is she crying?

"Ada?"

Sniffle.

"Yeah?"

"What's wrong?"

Sniffle.

"Nothing's wrong, Zeke."

Fuck.

Something is wrong.

My heart drops into my stomach and I immediately feel nauseous, but I sit up to try to get her to look at me.

"Shit, Ada. You feel bad don't you? You're regretting this."

Dammit! Exactly what I didn't want to have happen.

"Did I hurt you? Fuck. Ada, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it, but if you're regretting this, I…" I push my hand through my hair. "God, fuck, we shouldn't have—"

"No." She turns so I'm hovering over her and stops me, shaking her head, her tears still streaming down her face. She brings a hand to my cheek.

"No, Zeke. Nothing is wrong. I'm three hundred billion percent perfectly fine." But she's still sniffling and tears are still streaming down her face.

"But you're crying." I shake my head completely baffled and quite frankly, scared of what she's going to say.

"I've never felt anything like that before in my entire life, Zeke. What we just did. All three times, it was…exhilarating and fun and hot as hell. You made me feel things I haven't felt in I don't know how long. Physically and emotionally," she cries, each tear shattering my heart for her. "And I'm sorry I'm an emotional mess, I promise it's just the drop in adrenaline because none of these stupid tears have anything to do with me regretting anything we've done. I think I just…" She shakes her head and shrugs her shoulder. "I needed this. I needed to feel again. And I needed to be able to explore those feelings with someone I trust. Someone I care about. I needed this with you."

I bow my head and press my lips to hers, slowly drying her tears with my thumb.

"Thank God, you're not upset with anything we just did because having the pleasure of watching you fall apart not once, not twice, but three times, was earth shattering for me. Thank you for trusting me."

She sniffles again but her mouth morphs into a smile. "It was pretty earth shattering for me too."

"I want so much more of this with you, Ada," I murmur, wiping more of her tears with the pads of my thumb. "I want to spend more time with you. Clothes off and clothes on. I want to date you and spoil you and laugh with you. I want to fight with you and have all the hot makeup sex with you. I want a life with you."

"I want those things too, Zeke."

"Good." I smile softly and nudge her nose with mine. "Then it's settled. You are officially mine and I am officially yours. Just you and me."

"And Elsie," she adds with a sweet smirk.

"Oh yeah. And Elsie of course but thinking about her when I'm naked after having just fucked her nanny three magnificent times, just feels a little inappropriate to me."

She crinkles her face and snorts. "It totally does."

"Also, I don't want to think of you as Elsie's nanny anymore."

Her eyes grow huge. "What do you mean? Are you firing me?"

I huff out a soft laugh. "No Babe. Not firing you. How about…promoting you?"

"Promoting me?"

"You're my girlfriend. My lover. My partner. But you just happen to spend your days living in my house with my kid."

She twists her mouth thinking. "Should we discuss the new terms of payment?"

Weird that she wants to have a business discussion when we're both naked in bed, but alright. "Uh, sure."

"Great. Anything you're paying me now will go into a savings account except for what I need to pay my bills."

"Done."

"And if the day comes where we make this umm, partnership, even more official, that money will either be donated to a charity or be given to Elsie."

"Perfect."

"All other forms of payment for my childcare services will come in the form of orgasms."

"I like the way you think."

"Okay then." She beams up at me and I don't think I've ever seen anything more breathtaking. "Kiss me so we can seal this deal and then we should shower."

"Yes ma'am."