Chapter 2

Dessie

"Don't you disappear into being little, you brat. I need adult Dessie and you're not hiding him, fucker." Austin's anger would've been scary if he wasn't chasing me through the club wearing high heels and a tutu.

The fact that I wasn't winning by a mile said how good he was in those shoes.

Hoping the stairs up to the playroom would give me an edge, I completely missed the danger hiding just out of sight.

Austin's Dom.

He scooped me up in his arms, giving me a shrug as I sighed. "Aww. I was fast that time."

"I can't let Austin kill himself on the stairs even if he likes chasing you." Silas ignored my whine and turned us around so he was facing his insane partner. "You should've stayed on a flat surface and hidden somewhere downstairs. This is your own fault."

Ugh.

"This was entirely unnecessary." Shaking his head, Austin frowned. "Master, please hold him tight. He's wiggly."

I was wiggly.

Most people didn't hold squirming subs nearly tight enough because they were afraid of scaring us, but Silas knew me well enough not to be distracted by anything I could do. It was frustrating and hot all at the same time.

"I'll be good." Aiming wide eyes at Silas because I knew better than to try that nonsense on Austin, I pouted. "He scared me."

Austin snorted. "Bullshit. I'm trying to reward him."

He was?

Turning back to Austin, I frowned at him. "I'm not sure I believe that."

It was probably a scam but I liked rewards.

"Do you have cookies? A new flogger?" He'd half promised, half threatened to use one on me and I was still waiting to see if that would materialize.

The brat smirked and shook his head. "No, but you'll like this just as much."

Promises, promises.

"What is it?" Another naughty toy? "Did you get something new for the playroom?"

He was good at picking out toys for the playroom. Silas said that was because he refused to grow up and I thought he was right.

"No. This is something just for you." He gave me a tempting smile. "You won't have to share with anyone."

Oh.

"It's all mine?" Those were the best kind of toys. "What did you get me?"

Silas was trying not to laugh but his chest was jerking. "Come on. This isn't the place for this conversation."

Why?

What kind of toy couldn't we talk about in a BDSM club?

What had he gotten for me?

I didn't know anything that would be too naughty for Austin to talk about in public, much less in the club. He really didn't care what was taboo or not…so he was making me curious.

"Office time. You're right." Whirling around to make his skirt fly up all around him, he stopped when he was facing the back corner. "And we're off."

"To find my new toy?" It was dangerous to follow crazy men to a secondary location, but he was hot and had good toys. "What did you get me?"

Austin just giggled and pranced around in his heels.

One day when I grew up, I'd learn how to walk in them and not kill myself, but I wasn't ready to be a grown-up yet.

"I'm not telling you yet…and I'm not sure I said anything about buying you something." His teasing, sing-songy tone had me starting to worry.

"Master Silas? Is he teasing me?" Aiming a sad, wide-eyed look at Silas, I pouted. "I've been a good boy. Uncle Jarrett said so."

Kind of.

Silas shook his head but didn't let me escape. "He's enjoying driving you crazy but he does have a surprise to talk to you about. But once you hear him out, I'll let you run off and play whenever you want."

So Austin had a reward for me but I might not want it?

Ugh.

That was a very Austin thing to do.

"Alright." Deciding to enjoy being held while I was trapped, I rested my head against him and sighed. "Cuddles."

Austin snorted but didn't tell me that I couldn't snuggle with his Master. "You're lucky I like you so much."

He liked me because he was a pain in the ass too.

Silas was back to jerking in silent laughter, but he moved me around so he was holding me like the cute little I was. "There you go."

"Thank you." Sticking my thumb in my mouth, because sucking made everything better, I was mostly big by the time we went into Austin's office, but not really big.

Being a real adult was hard and I didn't do it unless I had to.

And at the club, I didn't have to.

Austin said so.

And he couldn't change the rules just because he was cranky…Silas said so.

"Alright, troublemakers, stalk him in public and not through the cameras." Austin's order didn't make sense until I saw the twins giggling and looking up from the wall of security monitors in Austin's office.

The omegas grinned even wider and looked naughty, but they didn't argue as they bounced out of the room.

"They're a handful." Austin was serious as he shook his head, but he just made Silas start silently laughing again.

I'd have responded but that would've meant taking my thumb out of my mouth and a smart-ass comment wasn't worth it at that point.

"Alright, privacy." Sitting down at one end of the couch that ran along another wall, he gestured for Silas to sit down too. "Don't let him go. He's a runner."

Yep.

Mostly because it was fun making Austin crazy.

"He's not going anywhere." Silas's rough tone made it sound like that should be scary, but he gave me a snuggly hug as he sat down and settled me onto his lap. When I was tucked against his chest and he was rubbing my back, he nodded. "We're ready."

"Thank you." Austin's serious expression made me want to giggle but I wasn't sure making him more frustrated was the right way to handle the situation.

I still wasn't sure what my reward was.

Smoothing out his pretty skirt, he crossed one ankle over the other and sat straighter. "Now, the first thing I'm going to do is remind you about how important privacy is."

Nodding, I didn't even smile since I knew how seriously he took that.

"Good boy." Silas patted my back before going back to giving me rubs and snuggly hugs.

"There is a new member of the club who I think would be a really good Daddy in general and a wonderful Daddy to a mischievous little."

Shoot.

I was trapped.

"No running. I'm not done yet." Glaring and getting pissed, Austin barked out the order as I wiggled and tried to escape. "He's not that nice. Stop panicking."

He wasn't nice?

"That should not make anyone feel better, Trouble." Silas's gruff voice made me want to smile. He wasn't technically wrong but he wasn't right either.

"Dessie is special." He managed to make that sound reasonable, which made my little side really happy. "He needs someone just as special as he is and…and my interesting friend would be a good match for him."

Hmm.

Silas huffed but he didn't say Austin was wrong.

I wasn't sure how to take it but Austin sat straighter and smiled…so I decided to be slightly worried, though I'd stopped fighting Silas…mostly because he was so strong I was getting tired.

"He's a bit gruff and looks stern, but I think he'd be a bit like Silas if you know what I mean." Austin raised one eyebrow and waited until I nodded. "Good. He's never been a Daddy before and hadn't heard of it, honestly, but that's not surprising."

Yeah, a lot of Doms didn't know what it was and a lot of subs didn't know there was a name for it.

But…

"I think you'll find he doesn't have a lot of preconceived notions about it, which in this case is a good thing." Austin shrugged when I sighed. "Not everyone is open-minded. Even Doms."

Some were brats who liked to say interesting littles were weird.

"Some Doms are dickheads." Silas's agreement made me giggle. "But we're not going to find you a dickhead, Dessie."

Still giggling around my thumb, I looked back at Austin and gave him a curious look. He sighed. "Fine. You don't have to talk yet."

I didn't have to talk at all if I didn't want to.

That was the rule for littles.

So I pointed to the list of rules on the wall and made him sigh again. "You're trying to make me insane, Dessie."

He was already there, so I wasn't sure why I was getting the blame for it.

Silas's snicker said he agreed with me.

Austin huffed but ignored his Dom because he was smart. "Okay, back to the point. My interesting friend would like to meet a sub and he'd like a serious relationship. He's not looking for just someone to casually play with once in a while."

Oh.

Realizing he'd caught my attention, the brat grinned and kept going before I could remember why listening to him was such a bad idea. "And like I said, he hadn't heard of age play before. He didn't see any problems with a little who likes lots of different ways to play."

Really?

I'd run into more than one Dom who'd said littles shouldn't want orgasms when they're little and one asshole in particular had said that liking to suck as much as I did was bad naughty.

Some Doms were buttheads.

I was good naughty…even Austin said so.

"He's smart and sexy." Silas's gruff sound made Austin giggle. "He is. Don't pout."

Austin liked to live dangerously.

"He's got a good job. I can't tell you what yet but it's good. He's confident about most areas of his life and he's looking for an open-minded partner too." Austin's list of positive attributes about the mysterious Dom made me realize there was something he wasn't saying.

That was always dangerous with Austin, so I sat up and looked at Silas.

He wasn't any help.

"I have no idea what he's hiding." Shrugging, Silas sighed. "I don't like not knowing, but Austin claimed privacy and said it's nothing dangerous or stupid or anything that will end up getting Austin arrested again."

Hmm.

The way Silas scrunched his face up said he was as skeptical as I was. "I'm thinking weird kink? Something that he doesn't want to show off in the club, probably. But Austin wouldn't introduce you to someone that's a dickhead or who wants something that's red on your limits list."

"It's not even a yellow." Austin looked happy to jump in and say that but then he frowned. "Um, mostly because I didn't realize it was a thing, so it's not on anyone's list. That's making it harder, honestly."

What.

The.

Fuck.

Looking wide-eyed and probably like a startled rabbit, I turned back to Silas. He shrugged again. "I know. How is there a thing he didn't know about? He doesn't even think I know about it. So that means it doesn't involve a product at the very least."

I wasn't sure if that was a good thing or not.

"I don't think it would be red or yellow for you. I wouldn't have talked to you about this at all if I thought it was. He's passionate about his privacy." Austin said it like he wasn't one of the most private people in the world when it came to important things.

Hell, most people still didn't know that Charlie, one of the other littles at the club, was basically his kid.

Kind of.

Little brother, maybe?

Nope. I wasn't going to get distracted.

Poking Silas with my free hand, I huffed, which got a chuckle from him. "Alright, my opinion?"

When I nodded, he didn't hold back. "I think you should consider it. Talk to Austin and see if it's a thing you could try out and then think about it."

Austin clearly sensed that I was weakening because he jumped in again. "The plan is for him to just join the club later this year if you're not interested."

Oh, that didn't sound good even if I wasn't interested.

"He's rabid about his privacy and he won't take the chance of you knowing who he is once I tell you what's private about all this." The way Austin worded it made it sound more like there was something special about the Dom and that it wasn't a kink.

Had he said it was a kink?

Was it something physical?

The only private things that I thought a Dom might be embarrassed about were stuff like a few of the members who needed diapers and didn't just use them for fun.

Was it like that?

"He's thought of something." Silas announced it before giving me another pat and picking me up to sit me on the couch next to Austin. "I'll wait outside the door. Just come get me when you're done."

I wasn't sure how he trusted Austin as much as he did, but he didn't even look worried as he kissed Austin's head and went out of the office, carefully shutting the door behind him.

Austin looked pleased but stubborn as he waited patiently.

Fuck it.

Taking my thumb out of my mouth, I shifted back on the couch until I was sitting in Silas's spot. "I'm ready."

Austin nodded but took his time answering. "I wouldn't tell this to just anyone. There are a lot of subs I don't trust enough to share this with, Dessie. He'll get hurt if this gets out."

Ignoring the lump in my throat, I took a breath and let it out slowly. "I won't tell, and even if I think I know who it's about later, I won't say anything."

"I know you won't." Austin leaned over and gave me a hug, ruffling his tutu. "I think your kinks and his private stuff are going to align very well, though."

How?

Swallowing back the question as he sat up, I tried to sound normal and not like I was worried. "I'll keep that in mind."

Sitting back, Austin smoothed his skirt out as he gave himself another moment to think. "I have no idea if there's a good way to say this or even if there's an offensive one. I've never run into this before, so I'm just going to say it and let him tell you later what kind of language he's comfortable using."

Yep, something physical.

"He's an alpha who lactates." Austin paused before raising one eyebrow. "Do you know what that means?"

"No." Wait. "Yes."

Was that a kink?

I was starting to understand why he'd said he didn't know the right words to use.

Rolling his eyes, Austin huffed again. "He produces milk like an omega who had a baby would but he's an alpha. He knots and everything. It's just a thing. Like a one in a zillion physical issue and as you can probably imagine, he's private about it."

"Some people would've been mean about it." That was obvious, but what took a second was the rest of what Austin had said. "Wait. He…he'd let me…I could…"

Flopping back on the end of the couch, Austin groaned. "Now he finally gets it."

Drama queen.

He sat up before I could point that out, though, and charged right back in. "He really didn't understand that there are subs and littles who wouldn't care and who could find it fun at the very least. He thought it was something that he'd be lucky to get a sub to simply ignore."

He clearly hadn't been looking to date in the right places.

"I…I wouldn't mind that if we clicked." I wouldn't date or submit to someone just because of it, but I wouldn't mind it as long as he didn't mind my reaction to it.

Austin giggled. "Understatement."

"You're such a brat."

He beamed. "Takes one to know one."

Unfortunately, he was right.

"Would…would he hate that I'd like it?" At least, I thought I'd like it. "What if…what if he thinks I'm wrong for liking it?"

Austin didn't hesitate for a moment. His voice went flat and his eyes went almost dead inside. "If he's mean to you, they'll never find his body."

That was good to know.

"Okay…I'll…I'll get to know him?"

How was this supposed to work?

I needed to learn to ask more questions before I agreed to anything he said.