Chapter 5

Elara

"What the hell is going on between you and Alpha Orson?" Trish asks me excitedly, practically jumping up and down as she is waiting for the juicy gossip, "I have never seen him act that way before and it feels like he is really into you. What did you do to win his attention like that? It almost doesn't make any sense."

I don't know how to explain to her about anything, so I just tell her what has happened. I don't know what to do about Alpha Orson because to me, it seems like he is a playboy. I don't know why he has decided to be so eager to win me over, but it doesn't make sense at all. When I see how he looks at me, it is almost too much, and it makes me feel weird. It makes me feel like I'm the only girl in the world and I don't know how to feel about that at all. It is becoming quite clear to me that I do not think he knows how to process his feelings either and something might end up happening.

That's what I think at least and I'm not so sure what to make of it. When I see how he acts around me, it makes me think that maybe he does want a relationship with me but another part of me doesn't know for sure. I don't know why he would be so interested in me when there's nothing about me that is special. It doesn't make sense at all, and I don't know what to make of it. I'm trying to decide what to do about all of this because I'm coming up blank.

"Elara, you better scoop that man right up and make him yours or I'm going to be so upset with you." Trish scolds me, raising an eyebrow at me now, "I know you're hesitant to like him and everything, but I can assure you that he is going to like you a lot. I don't know the Alpha to just accept someone even if they are his fated mate. And he isn't a playboy, so I don't know where you got that from."

The flashbacks of him fingering me and making me cum go to mind, as well as the moment he marked me. I can still feel him, gingerly touching the mark on my neck and trying to decide what to do about it. I don't know if I can trust him or anything, he has already made it perfectly clear that he isn't sure about our relationship. It is a bit odd if you ask me, making me wonder what else would come from it. I can see by the look on his face that he isn't a hundred percent sure either after what he did to me but I'm going to hold him accountable. It's quite odd that it has come to this, but I think that I'm going to figure it out one way or another.

"All I know is that you better make him yours before someone else tries to take him." She explains to me, a gentle smile appearing on her face, "I know you are probably hesitant to be with someone like him, but I can assure you that it is going to be okay. Maybe the worst thing that'll happen is that you won't be sure entirely of what would come next. I guess only time with for sure tell."

Running my fingers through my hair, I didn't know what to think because I couldn't be entirely certain about it at all. It makes me feel weird, knowing how this could flip around on me but I don't know what to make of it. It's like we're playing a dangerous game that I couldn't be entirely certain of, and it is making me feel weird. I guess the worst-case scenario is that we end up do trying and then there's nothing more about it that'll happen.

"I know but I don't know what I want to do about him." I admit to Trish, hoping that she can give me some advice that'll work, "We come from two totally different backgrounds, and I don't know if I'm worthy enough for him. Anyone can see that he deserves so much better than me and he would be happier with someone else. I don't know why he would even want me."

She looks pissed to hear me say that, and she glares at me, "I don't know why you're thinking that way, Elara, but don't talk like that. You are more than perfect enough to be by his side, and I wouldn't want anyone else to be. I don't know if he can't see it but I'm sure that it's pretty obvious that he is interested."

I don't know why he would be interested because I haven't seen him since then. I thought that we would be able to talk but it is clear to me that he isn't interested. I guess there's only one thing to do from here and then we can go on our merry way into figuring out if we can be together or not. I mean, what if he does decide that I'm not good enough for him? What if he wants to change his mind and then I'm left with nothing? I don't think my heart would be able to take it if I'm being honest.

I guess only time will tell me what'll happen next.