Chapter 21
The next
morning , they woke to feel a
different chill in the air. After they dressed, they looked outside
and saw it had snowed in the night. They were going to be confined
to their home until the weather passed.
"Could we perhaps stay in bed
all day then?" Alessandra asked him, with a small suggestive smile
on her face.
"No!" Edward exclaimed as
he laughed at her seductive enthusiasm. "There is a great deal to
be done. At this time of year, it is harder to keep fires going and
the house warm, so we all must pitch in and work to make it
possible. Even you and I! After breakfast, I will show you where we
keep extra stocks of everything we may need to get through this
time if we are stuck here and unable to get outside at
all."
Before making their way to
breakfast, he walked up behind her and held her while they both
looked out the window. Both considered how much their lives had
changed in recent months from what each of them had individually
expected.
"Come," Edward said as he
pulled away from her and held out his hand for her to take as they
made their way to the breakfast room. "The sooner we begin our day,
the sooner it will be bedtime again."
~~~~~
Later that afternoon,
Alessandra felt the familiar sensation of her monthly bleeding
arriving. She excused herself and headed toward the room she now
shared with her husband, not sure how to handle the situation
without the comfort of her mother around. When almost there, she
ran into Margaret.
"Oh, Miss, are you unwell? Is
there anything I can do for you?" she asked.
Alessandra felt
perplexed. She did not know how to act with her 'monthly visitor'
having arrived. She looked at Margaret, judging her to not be as
old as Alessandra's mother, but possibly old enough to know a great
deal about etiquette, and what people did in their marriage.
Feeling brave, she tentatively spoke.
"Margaret, may I ask you about
something of a rather private nature?" she asked quietly.
The woman before her smiled
softly. "Of course, Miss. Let us step into your room for privacy,
and you can ask me whatever you like."
Once inside the bedroom,
Alessandra turned to Margaret.
"I do not wish to cause any
offence when I ask but are you married?"
"Yes, I have been married
for over ten years, Miss," Margaret replied, with a warm and
sincere smile on her face. "What is it that you wish to ask me? You
will not offend, and you have my confidence."
Alessandra only hesitated
a moment. She wouldn't see her mother again, and the thought of
talking to Edward's mother did not appeal at all. She needed to
find the courage to keep speaking.
"I … today my …" Alessandra
started, finding herself blushing.
Margaret was perceptive and
made everything easier. "Is today the start of your monthly cycle,
Miss?" she asked.
Alessandra nodded. "I do not
know what I am to do, as a married woman…" she tried to
continue.
Margaret looked at her,
suspecting what Alessandra was worried about.
"Are you concerned about what
to do during these days, with regard to your husband?"
She heard Alessandra let out a
sigh of relief, as she saw her nod her head.
"Do … things
… continue … during this time?" Alessandra asked, feeling her face transform to its dark
red tone once more.
Margaret looked kindly at
her. She remembered the first months of her own marriage, and how
timid she had also been.
"That is for you to
decide, Miss," she replied. "I believe some women do not wish to
engage in that way with their husband during the time of bleeding,
but for other women it does not bother them in the slightest. It is
something that will come to visit month after month unless you are
with child, so it is something you can decide with the young master
if your communication is open."
"Did you talk to your
husband about it?" Alessandra asked, hoping she was not
overstepping any boundaries. Instead of seeming offended, Margaret
only looked happy to talk about the subject, and started to laugh
quietly.
"Oh, Miss, the first
bleeding I had after I married, I was so embarrassed about that I
made up excuses for almost a whole week, saying I could not sleep
beside him," Margaret said. "After that week was over and we re-met
in our marriage bed, he was so concerned about it that I ended up
telling him it had been my week of bleeding. He told me there and
then that my monthly visitor would never again be an excuse for us
to not sleep beside one another. He did not mind if we did not
engage in our intimacy for the week, but he would not have me
sleeping in a different bed from him ever again."
Alessandra watched the
older woman facial expression as she seemed to be remembering the
time with fondness.
"After that conversation, I
never slept apart from him again, and I found it easiest to just
tell him when it was starting. He was very patient and accepting of
it, as I am sure the young master will be also."
Margaret stopped and looked
right at Alessandra.
"He is a good boy, the
young master," she said. "Everything is new for both of you, but I
have found that the more and the sooner you can talk about
everything, the quicker the relaxation about it comes."
Alessandra looked at her with
gratitude.
"Thank
you , Margaret," she said. "I
do hope I have not made you uncomfortable."
Margaret smiled broadly
at her. "Miss, it takes a great deal to make me feel uncomfortable.
You may ask me anything, anytime. I may not always be able to
answer, but I will always be happy to try."
~~~~~
That night, as Edward
climbed into bed with Alessandra, she felt surprisingly shy, and
not like her usual forward self at that time of day.
"You seem distant," he
said to her, watching her for some sign of what was going on in her
mind. He knew she sometimes thought about things very deeply before
doing or saying what she wanted to.
"I have my monthly bleeding
today," she said quietly, avoiding looking in his eyes.
Edward was momentarily
confused. He remembered his mother had talked about such things,
but he equally conceded that he might not have listened well enough
to know what he should say or do in such a moment.
"Alessandra, I am not too
aware of the workings of a woman's body, but am I correct in
thinking that you will bleed for some days every month, and that if
you do not bleed, that is a sign that you are with child?" he
ventured to blurt out, feeling certain that he probably had gotten
something wrong. His words encouraged her to look up again, into
his eyes.
"Yes! I thought you might
not know, and I was worried about what it might mean for us and …
this time of day," she said quietly and saw him smile at
her.
"Does it make you feel
different, like you do not want us to touch each other?" he asked,
very curious about how things were.
"No, I do not feel like I do
not want to touch you, but I am … a little bit …messy."
Edward
kissed her on the lips and caressed
her nipple before moving his hand down, making Alessandra feel
embarrassed but also trusting of him. She felt him touch her there,
with his finger, as he had done so many times before.
"Does it hurt, now that
you are bleeding?" he asked and heard her moan in
pleasure.
"No," she breathed out at
him, looking as she always did in those moments.
"Shall I keep touching you?" he
asked.
"Yes, please."
Alessandra relished the
feelings again, realising that the time of month did not need to
equate to no pleasure for them. She appreciated that he wouldn't
want to kiss her there at such a time, but the pleasurable caresses
were quite enough for them both.