13. Gay

Chapter thirteen

Gay

F rom his moans to the way RJ's body moves between mine and Cin's, one part of me wants to strip him down and explore all the ways I can make him come undone. RJ is so reactive, writhing his body between us and eliciting a response in my body I can only imagine is reflected in Cin as well.

He's the perfect blend of eagerness and innocence that has me ready to throw caution aside in favor of a few hours of fun. I'm glad my rational mind wins out.

What RJ may not remember from the night before is him offering to suck Cin and I off after the scene while we were still at the diner. I'm not one to turn down a blow job, when I'm into the person offering, but it felt transactional. RJ was out of it, half asleep, and phrased his offer in a way I couldn't be sure wasn't obligation.

When I have sex with someone, I want to know they're fully into it for their own pleasure and enjoyment, not because they feel like they have to.

So when RJ reaches back to slip his hand between our bodies in an attempt to find my dick, I stop his progress and the kiss. "Not right now, sweet boy," I add to temper the rejection.

RJ whimpers, and I tighten my arms around him and Cin, who has stopped kissing RJ as well. "But I want to?"

Holding back my reply pointing out he asked a question instead of stating a fact, I kiss his cheek and step back. I'm still touching him, but he can break the embrace if he wants to.

"You said you need to get home."

"Oh, right."

RJ does step out of our arms then, but makes no move to put more space between us. I can see the gears turning in his mind and want to reassure him that this isn't goodbye.

"Can we take you out and play again?" Cin asks, reading my mind.

"Yes, we'd love to have you over when you aren't going through sub drop," I add. "If you want?"

He nods but doesn't reply as he gathers his blankie from the couch and phone from the table, stuffing them into his fanny pack before zipping it closed and looking at me again. Finally, RJ's smile returns, overtaking his pensive look to brighten his face.

"If I can't have you now, I'll take another date as soon as possible, please?"

"Absolutely," Cin agrees, leaning in for another kiss from RJ, who obliges until Cin breaks to speak again. "I need to get some work done. Do you mind if Gay takes you home?"

"Oh, sure," RJ bites his lip and Cin goes in for another kiss, nibbling until RJ lets them in deeper. I enjoy watching them clinging to one another until Cin breaks away with a happy sigh. "See you soon."

"As soon as possible," Cin repeats RJ's words and winks. My bratty kitten is good at riling me up and it's fun to see the effect from the outside.

Walking toward the entryway, I lead RJ to where we left his shoes and harness so we can head out. Taking his hand, we walk to my car, where I open the passenger door for him.

"No one has ever opened the door for me like you two," RJ tells me when I take my seat, offering my hand again.

When the boy beside you is so fucking sweet and vulnerable, who needs two hands to drive?

"You deserve to be treated like the precious being you are," I insist, leaning over the center console to kiss him once before pulling onto the street.

RJ is quiet on the drive, not letting my hand go, but I don't sense unease in him. He's a quiet person, not needing talk to fill the silence. The radio plays some ska music and we hold hands until I pull up to his place.

"It's probably safer for you not to give strangers the door code for your place, but next time let's plan for you to stay over ahead of time. So there's no confusion."

"You're not a stranger."

"Not anymore," I tease before hopping out to get his door.

We walk toward the entrance side by side and RJ reaches out to grip my arm, "I want to stay the night next time."

"Let's give you some time for your drop to pass before making set plans, alright?"

"And then we'll plan a second date? With both of you?" RJ clarifies.

"Yes," I agree, though a particular point needs to be made. "But you don't have to date us together. You can also ask to date one of us at a time, or only one of us at all. We're partners, but I wouldn't expect you to like Cin and I in the same ways at the same time."

RJ tilts his head back and forth as he tucks his harness into the strap of his pack so his hands are free. Stepping forward, he reaches up to cup my face. "I like both of you, though. Together and as individuals. I want to play with both of you again."

"Good," I smile, pulling him close and kissing his nose. "Then we'll chat over the next few days and make plans. I want to hear everything you think of or feel."

"Everything?"

"Whatever you want to share or any questions, no matter how silly or inconsequential you think they are. Call me any time. I may not answer right away if I'm at work, but I'll call you back when I can."

"Cin too?"

"Cin too, though they're more of a texter," I concede, leaning back to raise a brow at the younger man. "I imagine you are too."

RJ grins and lets me go. "Yeah, phone calls are not my jam."

"However you communicate, I'm there."

RJ enters the door code and I steal one last kiss, lips lingering as butterflies tumble around my insides.

"Bye, Gay."

"Bye, sweet boy."

Watching him until the door closes, I can't see through the darkened security doors, but I linger in case he's looking out at me. When an older lady walks up and gives me a dirty look for loitering by the entrance, I go back to my car and head home.

Cin is waiting for me, not letting me even get my shoes off before pulling me close and demanding to hear everything RJ said about next time. We work on the basement and talk through how every moment with RJ made us feel, and what we'd love to do when we have him in our bed with a clear head.

Before bed, I'm about to check on RJ when he messages us both in the group thread. Cin rushes in from the bathroom to read RJ's words with me.

RJ

thank you for everything… i am feeling… happy but lonely

Cin and I look at one another, touching from shoulder to toe seated beside each other in our king bed, and I can sense their guilt over our couple's privilege.

Cin

Do you need something from us? We could video chat?

RJ

thanks, but i think I'll take Gay's advice and see how I'm feeling. Message tomorrow?

Any time. We're here. Goodnight, sweet boy.

RJ

night Daddy, night Cin Kiss emoji sleep emoji

Cin

Night Kiss emoji

We put our phones on their chargers and Cin snuggles into my arms. Like any cat, they won't want to cuddle for long, but I appreciate the touch as we turn out the lights to sleep.

Do I want RJ there to cuddle in between us?

A sense of rightness settles over me. Whether we go further with RJ or not, I have no regrets about starting this thing with Cin. RJ may be a passing part of our relationship, or he might stick around longer. Either way, I can't wait to find out what kind of fun we get up to together.